Well this is more realistically what is going on in my life week to week. It is REALLY going to be a way for me to sum up what I HAVE accomplished. Why do I need to keep a record? or why does anyone care?
You perhaps don't care, however I need to keep this record for my own sanity. I mean this quite literally. I am in the midst of "mild postpartum" depression. Amongst the "normal" feelings of inadequacy in motherhood and strong desire to simply run away (don't worry it is NOT so bad that I mean from this world and if I were to go anywhere Ara would come with me.. so I'm pretty sure it would be the worst "escape" plan ever) I am also fighting a bit of OCD. Well-intentioned people have thus told me to give myself a break and that I am actually doing quite a bit as a stay at home mother. I know this but am still working on making peace with it.
The fact that I am not taking care of le babe, cooking delightful multi-course meals, keeping an impeccable household, doing side projects for extra cash and out looking for volunteer opportunities in the community has sharply slapped reality in my face. Summary: I had completely unrealistic expectations of being a stay at home mom.
My hope in starting this blog is to not only find some "me time" but to use it to remind myself of the things I HAVE accomplished. (yes that last bit needed repeating)
Also today is Ara's 10th month Bday!!!
So the first thing I'm going to note that I have definitely accomplished is taking a crap-load of pictures of my baby girl in the last 10 months. I will spare this blog... but you can check out my facebook :)
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