Soooo 2008-2009 was a rough time. We lost my Dad, my paternal Grandpa, my maternal Grandma and I also got married (our marriage is still alive I only list it since it was also life altering)... Since that time I am very VERY aware of the differences between:
- An emergency & an event that requires Action (stabbed in chest with big knife vs. slightly sliced finger with edge of paper)
- A disappointment & a tragedy (hearing your favorite team lost vs. finding out that you need to go be at the bedside of your dying loved one)
- The appropriate time to use extreme adjectives (Worst, Most Horrible, Tragic) and when things merely require adjectives (Bad, Not Great, Sad)
- The understandable times to use strong language and abusing profanities/volume nuances (boulders falling from the sky vs. just realizing you need to go back home to grab something you forgot)
That being stated I would like to briefly vent about some events of the past two days and provide a severly abbreviated back-story. Yes we are still alive but I may or may not tend to be a bit over dramatic in what follows (consider yourself warned).
- Husbie spent 3.5 years looking for teaching jobs... while substituting and working part time at a charter school... gets one interview but job goes to lady applicant in the male dominated field... after 1 year that position is cut so really its kind of a good thing he didn't get it... but still disheartening that a 4 year degree, license and hard work leads to no job.
- Now after a giant career shift and 2 years of school and another licence this time in Nursing it is taking longer than planned to find a nursing job.
- Savings depleted
- Credit cards VERY nearly maxed out (had to put nursing degree on credit cards b/c this is his second degree and he was not eligible for any grants/loans.. and food stamps DOES NOT cover food for 2 adults and 1 baby. Also car trouble multiple times...)
- Getting $ help from parents (b/c we clearly were just not humbled enough)
- Husbie will not have his current job after the 5th of next month due to having his nursing license for 90 days at that point.
- After interviews he thought went very well HR is encouraging him to apply for other positions (could still be good but we are thrown off by this)
- Close friend loses Mom after a very long fight with Cancer
- I accidentally get cell phone submerged in water... had phone insurance but still had to fork over a significant amount to get a replacement.
- I forget to sign a check this morning to be deposited.... (but THEORETICALLY I'm a step ahead b/c I caught it right after I did it and am already working with bank to avoid fees)
Now here is the straw... you know the one... the one that makes me cry tonight/breaks my back until I pull myself up.
- My car will not start... and we think it is the battery.
However!!!! Here is my happy list
- God still loves us
- Husbie & I still love each other & our beautiful daughter
- We are all alive
- We are all generally healthy
- I have a good friend in town for the whole summer & if she wasn't with me the last couple days I totally would be a lot more broken/beat down.
- We have food & water
- We have shelter
- We have family that loves us and really has been aMAZing in helping us financially right now.
- And even if I have NO IDEA of where it is necessarily going to come from next month: we have been able to pay all of our bills for this month!
As posted by me earlier on facebook:
I am just so Thankful that cars, phones and money are not health, life or happiness. We'd have all sorts of issues otherwise.